:.Throwback.:
14-11-2014 (11.30pm)
Tarikh yang tidak akan dilupakan. Sudah tiba masa kelahiran puteri sulongku. Telah mula dirasakan sakit yang makin sakit. Walau tanda tidak terlalu jelas, sakit makin kerap. Akhirnya kuputuskan untuk ke hospital.
Di hospital, rutin dilakukan. CTG and bukaan rahim oleh jururawat. Masih diawal progress. Belum 2 cm. Akhirnya, doktor tiba.
Detik ini lah, resah gelisah makin bertambah. "Bacaan CTG so tricky!"
Allah...
Heart beat baby cecah 180. "Baby distress" "Kena operate ni!"
Aku dan suami terkesima. Kami buntu. Aku taknak. Tak rela.
Doktor masih menegaskan perlu dibedah segera. Suami berbincang dengan doktor.
Naluri ibu..."Demi anakku, apapun perlu ditempuhi. Yang penting anak ini selamat."
Suamiku masuk. Bertanya keputusanku.
Hanya mengangguk sanggup. Demi anak ini....
15-11-2014 (4.30am)
Alhamdulillah....tak lama.semuanya dimudahkan. Lahirlah puteri syurga yang sihat sempurna, Ya, terlalu sempurna dalam jagaanNya. Subhanaalah...Kulitnya putih bersih, tersenyum dalam lena. Allah, besar sungguh nikmatmu.
Hanya mampu mendakap selepas lebih 6 jam melahirkan. Akibat kesan bius, 6 jam diri ini tidak boleh bergerak. Hanya terbaring.
Selepas 6 jam, kesan ubat bius makin hilang. Bermulalah dugaan kesakitan. Ya, Terlalu sakit. Tapi digagahi juga. Bayi yang baru dilahirkan perlu disusui. Sungguh, naluri ibu melebihi rasa sakit. Menatap wajahnya, menyusuinya....cukup menghilangkan rasa sakit sementara.
Indah nikmat menjadi ummi...
Jujur ku ceritakan, pembedahan itu menyakitkan. Melangkah ke tandas yang beberapa langkah sahaja sudah cukup memeritkan. Ketawa, batuk juga menyerikan. Namun usah khuatir. Allah itu Maha Penyayang, Maha Penyembuh. Melihat wajah anak sahaja sudah cukup melupakan kita pada rasa sakit itu. Walau sementara, namun itulah yang menguatkan semangat.
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Alhamdulillah...segalanya dimudahkan. Berpantang seadanya. Alhamdulillah masih diberi kesihatan olehNya. Walau banyak yang baru perlu dipelajari, akan diusahakan berdikit-dikit.
(Sekadar catatan ringkas seadanya mengenai cara kelahiran anak sulungku)
Tuesday, March 10, 2015
Saturday, February 7, 2015
The sweetest closure of 2014
In the name of Allah The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful...
.:2014 n 2015:.
It has been a year this blog has been webbed. The cause is of course 'ME'. ;p
Too lazy to key in any data or even scribble. Till thinking of just let the blog be.
Oh my! Really bad...
Ok, to make it short. Year 2014 is the best year for me. Yup. I am now a mummy ;) Just cant believe it. What a wonderful feeling to have 'someone' with you everywhere you go, anytime you be...When I am happy, yes I can share with 'someone' at that moment. When I am down, 'someone' is with me giving me strength to keep on moving. Even when I cried, someone soothing from inside.Oh well, how can I describe that feeling. Subahanallah! and that 'someone' is my baby, never make me lonely since she with me.
And 15th November marked the best date in my life. I heard her first cry. I saw her real body. I touched her real skin. I smell her real fragrance. Subahanallah, Alhamdulillah, Allahuakbar!
Allahuakbar! Allah is Almighty. That moment, I just cant believe she is now on my lap. I also still remember my hubby's happy face to see his new 'girlfriend'. Sorry dear, I am now has a 'gang' at home.;p
.:2014 n 2015:.
It has been a year this blog has been webbed. The cause is of course 'ME'. ;p
Too lazy to key in any data or even scribble. Till thinking of just let the blog be.
Oh my! Really bad...
Ok, to make it short. Year 2014 is the best year for me. Yup. I am now a mummy ;) Just cant believe it. What a wonderful feeling to have 'someone' with you everywhere you go, anytime you be...When I am happy, yes I can share with 'someone' at that moment. When I am down, 'someone' is with me giving me strength to keep on moving. Even when I cried, someone soothing from inside.Oh well, how can I describe that feeling. Subahanallah! and that 'someone' is my baby, never make me lonely since she with me.
And 15th November marked the best date in my life. I heard her first cry. I saw her real body. I touched her real skin. I smell her real fragrance. Subahanallah, Alhamdulillah, Allahuakbar!
Allahuakbar! Allah is Almighty. That moment, I just cant believe she is now on my lap. I also still remember my hubby's happy face to see his new 'girlfriend'. Sorry dear, I am now has a 'gang' at home.;p
So thats how I end the year..The sweetest year in my life. And I started 2015 with a new title, a new responsibility. InsyaALLAH will raise this precious sunshine with full of love :)
Friday, February 14, 2014
Redha + yakin + sabar = gembira +rahmat Allah
Antara ciri wanita yang beriman dan solehah ialah redha dan sabar dengan setiap aturan yang telah disusun oleh Allah swt.
Serahkanlah keyakinan kepada Allah swt, pasti Dia membalas keyakinan itu dengan rahmat, berkat dan ganjaran yang melimpah ruah daripada sisi-Nya, Tuhan Yang Maha Pemurah.
(Noraslina Jusin, Cinta tiga rasa)
Cinta Tiga Rasa
In the name of Allah The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful...
Alhamdulillah, All praises be to Allah...
The 2014 has started with smiles and a lot of improvement in my life.
The day i long for has arrived. I feel it and be so greatful to be given the chances to experience it.
Happiness.
Yup, 2014 start with happy moment as i wish for. I promise that this happiness wont stop just for a short time. i want it to be till jannah.
Thus, a lot of construction need to be done. I planned a few things and surely the top list must improving self to be better and better.
Praises be to Allah..everytime we want to start out good, Allah's light is always on. I found this handy, easy-to-digest book.
Even though i said that this is an easy-to-digest book, it doesn't mean it is simple to apply. I like the way its author pictured her experience and thought. The way she wrote the book make me easy to understand it.
Yet, to apply it need a lot of mujahadah and consistency as well as patience.
InsyaALLAH we can do it if we give it a try. I believe, this kind of book can be one of the reference for a good marriage life. Good references for good examples...
Alhamdulillah, All praises be to Allah...
The 2014 has started with smiles and a lot of improvement in my life.
The day i long for has arrived. I feel it and be so greatful to be given the chances to experience it.
Happiness.
Yup, 2014 start with happy moment as i wish for. I promise that this happiness wont stop just for a short time. i want it to be till jannah.
Thus, a lot of construction need to be done. I planned a few things and surely the top list must improving self to be better and better.
Praises be to Allah..everytime we want to start out good, Allah's light is always on. I found this handy, easy-to-digest book.
Even though i said that this is an easy-to-digest book, it doesn't mean it is simple to apply. I like the way its author pictured her experience and thought. The way she wrote the book make me easy to understand it.
Yet, to apply it need a lot of mujahadah and consistency as well as patience.
InsyaALLAH we can do it if we give it a try. I believe, this kind of book can be one of the reference for a good marriage life. Good references for good examples...
Thursday, January 2, 2014
Soften heart
In the name of Allah The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful...
Alhamdulillah what a beautiful Friday morning.
Since moving to a new education environment, i had to do some adjustment. Frankly speaking, it was quite hard. With 40 kids in a class and different kinds of attitude, sometimes test my patience. However, i believed when there is a will, there is a way. Even though the feeling of stress kept running after me, i try to avoid it. Praise be to ALLAH. one of my friend had told me that it is good to read a du'a before start out especially surah Taha to soften the heart.
Insyaalah, hope to apply this everyday before enter the class:)
Alhamdulillah what a beautiful Friday morning.
Since moving to a new education environment, i had to do some adjustment. Frankly speaking, it was quite hard. With 40 kids in a class and different kinds of attitude, sometimes test my patience. However, i believed when there is a will, there is a way. Even though the feeling of stress kept running after me, i try to avoid it. Praise be to ALLAH. one of my friend had told me that it is good to read a du'a before start out especially surah Taha to soften the heart.
Insyaalah, hope to apply this everyday before enter the class:)
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
TAHUN BARU...AZAM BARU....
Dengan nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang.
Assalamualaikum w.b.t....
Sudah lebih setahun rasanya tidak menconteng secarik garis di blog ini. Terlalu banyak perkara yang terjadi menjadikan aku sedikit terhimpit sebak dan merudum yakin diri.
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Namun kasih sayang Allah tidak pernah pergi. PetunjukNya kian menerangi jalanku.Alhamdulillah....
Dan kini, di tahun yang baru aku nekad menggagahkan diri, mencuba bangkit kembali tidak kira apa yang terjadi...Ujian tetap ujian, namun hidup harus diteruskan.
Tahun baru sudah pasti sinonim dengan azam baru. Bagiku, tahun baru ini ingin ku jadikan titik mula yang baru selepas terjeruk dengan sebak yang tak sudah. Ingin ku bangkit kembali, mensyukuri nikmat hidup di bumi yang aman ini.
Alhamdulillah, tahun ini ada beberapa perkara penting yang ku rencanakan. Semoga petunjuk dan rahmat Allah sentiasa mengiringi jalanku.
Dan ku harapkan tahun ini juga, cinta kami semakin berkembang mekar dan mewangi harumnya berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat. Betapa aku mensyukuri diberi peluang menjadi seorang isteri kepada suami yang begitu penyayang. Alhamdulillah...
Friday, September 28, 2012
UJIAN CINTA
In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful....
Yesterday was quite a bad day for me...trials came one after another...feeling so down and sad.
Really, I dont know what to do. Yet past experiences taught me how to heal these wounds.
I switched on my lappy and began to surf. Alhamdulillah...Allah's help come in so many ways. I found abundant sayings on facebook that lift up my strength.
Then, I continue surfing other website. A lot articles I found that heal the pain that I felt. And today, my heart becomes even much better.
Just dont want to miss a great experience when I read an article by Ust Pahrol Mohd Juoi. One of great Ustaz that I love to read his writings.
His sharing was really beneficial. I begin to get back my strength. Thank you Allah for giving me the hint to read the article.
http://genta-rasa.com/2012/08/29/ujian-cinta/
And when i read the comments, I was struck by one of it,
orang yang bercinta sering diuji. Hatta untuk mencintai Allah juga, penuh onak dan duri…kekuatan dan kesungguhan untuk mencapai cinta itu yang perlu ada…
Yup...all the trials are actually the test given by Him to prove my love to Him. I began to realize, indeed it is true in His words that He wont let us just admit we love Him. Yet He will accompany us with trials for us to prove our love.
Subhanallah....
And actually all the trials are the prove that He loves us...He dont want us to be far, forget Him...He loves to hear our cry, that the only one we hope and we trust is only Him, Allah The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful...
Alhamdulillah...I begin to feel much more calm.
I love Allah...May Allah protect this love in me and for everybody..the precious gift from Him to me and all.
Yesterday was quite a bad day for me...trials came one after another...feeling so down and sad.
Really, I dont know what to do. Yet past experiences taught me how to heal these wounds.
I switched on my lappy and began to surf. Alhamdulillah...Allah's help come in so many ways. I found abundant sayings on facebook that lift up my strength.
Then, I continue surfing other website. A lot articles I found that heal the pain that I felt. And today, my heart becomes even much better.
Just dont want to miss a great experience when I read an article by Ust Pahrol Mohd Juoi. One of great Ustaz that I love to read his writings.
His sharing was really beneficial. I begin to get back my strength. Thank you Allah for giving me the hint to read the article.
http://genta-rasa.com/2012/08/29/ujian-cinta/
And when i read the comments, I was struck by one of it,
orang yang bercinta sering diuji. Hatta untuk mencintai Allah juga, penuh onak dan duri…kekuatan dan kesungguhan untuk mencapai cinta itu yang perlu ada…
Yup...all the trials are actually the test given by Him to prove my love to Him. I began to realize, indeed it is true in His words that He wont let us just admit we love Him. Yet He will accompany us with trials for us to prove our love.
Subhanallah....
And actually all the trials are the prove that He loves us...He dont want us to be far, forget Him...He loves to hear our cry, that the only one we hope and we trust is only Him, Allah The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful...
Alhamdulillah...I begin to feel much more calm.
I love Allah...May Allah protect this love in me and for everybody..the precious gift from Him to me and all.
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